It is so amazing to call Jesus my Lord and Savior! To know that He is mine, and I have hope in Him is such a wonderful miracle. Through Christ, I have a hope that allows me to no longer rely on myself but in Him. Such a reliance has empowered me in ways that I could have never imagined. Before this empowerment could be felt, I went through the motions of needing to be self-reliant, independent, and in control of every area of my life. While I believed this was a good thing, I could not have been more wrong.
Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.
Being a control freak caused me to stress about what I would do and how life would be in the future. I lived this insanity, even while being a Christian. As a Christian, I began to see that this was no way to live my life. Even so, it was all about control for me, and I was not ready to relinquish it.
By the power of His blood, Jesus has set me free (Ephesians 1:7-17). Still, I was the one making myself a prisoner. Thank God, I realize this now. Thank God, the Holy Spirit shook me and reminded me that Jesus Christ is the only way and that I have hope in him. However, it would take several more years before I would fully submit and surrender my life, finances, family, and my personal relationships to God. As you might imagine, life continued to be a rollercoaster ride of fear, worry, stress, and anxiety.
Nowadays, I no longer stress or have the need to be in control of everything. As well, I do my best to remember that I cannot and should not make decisions on my own. Doing so allows me the assurance that everything will work out the way it is supposed to. God’s way. Therefore, I freak out less!
Should disappointments come, I try to view them as God’s opportunity to bring something good into my life and to help me draw closer to him. Notice, I keep saying the word “try”. It is all about learning, growing, and changing for God’s glory. Funny, I used to think my life was my business.
Without fully receiving hope in Christ, I could never have changed my outlook or my actions. By faith, I began to see that, despite my circumstances, I still had hope in Jesus. I am also still in God’s hands, and this is the best place to be! Renewed, is my hope that, no matter what, God will always win (Psalm 108 13; Psalm 46:10). Because I am connected to God, through Jesus, so will I (John 14:6).